My body is reluctantly adjusting to getting up at night to Zeke's patient pleas. I've done quite a bit of sleep talking in my life and Andrew's weaned me off most of my nightmares so now I've taken on some new sleeping activities. Often my subconscious body will hear Zeke's cries or stirrings and I'll start to cuddle, quiet, and feed him in my sleep. This sweet but unproductive work is usually interrupted by a word or nudge from Andrew. Like I said....So glad GOD doesn't slumber or sleep but is always awake and on duty for us!
My admiration for mothers is growing rapidly. I've spent many years watching Mom's/Mum's. I've been stashing away a list of role models and listening for secrets of wisdom they drop along the way. Many women I've crossed paths with or been able to read about like Sarah Edwards (Jonathan's wife), Idelette Calvin (John's wife), and many others have left me inspired and amazed but I still have found the most courage, wisdom and encouragement from my own Mama's example and her loving counsel.
One thing that I've appreciated is my parents attitude towards children. Growing up with nine siblings I never once heard Mama talk negatively about children, being pregnant or nursing. It wasn't until leaving home that I realized how rare this is. Since being pregnant and having my own babe I've heard a lot of friendly negativity and complaining about the aches, pains and struggles that come with the journey. I've even chimed in here and there and though it's momentarily fun I've found that the conversations don't build my faith or uplift my spirit. I love talking to Mama about the wonder of having a baby, the sweet bond of nursing and the funny little ways of an infant. It's helps me on trying days to see the wonder of it all and to look at Zeke as my very own challenging little miracle. ;)
And now the teary and wonderful moment long anticipated is Lord-willing nearly here....
MAMA ARRIVES IN JUST TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)!!
I love being a woman. Riding emotions to untold lands. Surfing and sailing a full spectrum of moods. I love being a wife and a mama. Sorting through the growing list of occupations and careers I can't find one I'd rather give my days to than the love of my life and our wee babe. Majoring on my man will take a lifetime worth of credits but my minor is fitting just perfect within my arms. The tasks are growing as I learn new skills. Challenges are added just ahead of the rate of my climbing ability. I'm making the job my own, seasoning life with a new blend of spices. Painting the day in a mixture of Eden and Andrew humor and creativity. I get to design my own uniform. No fear of being fired. Secure in the love of my Creator, the one he's entrusted me to as well as the one he's entrusted us with.
